cilis poetry

Poetry and Journaling

Understood.Word by word.

Books for everyone who feels.

Book Collection

Dark blue cover of The Pain of Betrayal, with warm beige type aligned on the left and a gold crack across the lower half

Book 01

The Pain of Betrayal

This book is about being betrayed and the pain it leaves behind. A blend of reflection, emotion, and healing — a place to relate, to understand, to reflect, to heal, or to cry.

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When people hurt us through their actions, we often have no control over it. Yet somehow, we are the ones left carrying the pain, even though we did nothing wrong. I believe this happens far too often, and far too many people know what that kind of pain feels like. That's why I wanted to share my thoughts. Because I hope that those who read these pages will feel understood, and realize they are not alone.

Warm off-white cover of You Promised You'd Stay, with black editorial type and handwritten reflections

Book 02

You Promised You’d Stay.

Born from my own experience of heartbreak, You Promised You'd Stay is a collection of poetry and journaling that accompanies you through its different stages — from grief and anger to realization, relapse, healing, and finally, a new beginning.

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Love doesn't disappear the moment someone leaves. It stays. In your thoughts. In your memories. In every little thing that reminds you of them. Suddenly, heartbreak becomes louder than everything else. You wake up thinking about them. You fall asleep thinking about them. It feels impossible to think about anything else. If this feels real, this book is for you. One day, you'll come back to your pages and realize just how far you've come.

Reviews

5/5 stars

“When she wrote that she had waited for him in −3°C weather and lay crying on the floor, it brought tears to my eyes too. Absolutely heartbreaking how she describes those moments.”

Amelie Künstler

About the author

Celia Roloff

I started writing my first book after my first partner left me. It was one of the most difficult times in my life, and writing became the place where I could process my thoughts and emotions. As time went on, I kept writing. When I eventually found happiness again and looked back at everything I had written, I realized I could actually see my own growth reflected in those pages. That was the moment I knew I wanted to share my words with others. I wanted people to know that difficult times don’t last forever and that they are not alone in what they’re feeling. My second book was inspired by another painful experience: I was cheated on. Once again, writing helped me make sense of my thoughts and emotions. I realized how many people go through similar experiences, often carrying those feelings in silence. Today, I write whenever a topic weighs heavily on my mind. My hope is that my books help people feel understood, offer comfort during difficult times, and remind them that healing is possible. Sometimes, simply knowing that someone else has felt the same way can make all the difference. One thing all of my books have in common is that they are never just about pain. They are about the journey from pain to healing. Because no matter how difficult life may feel in the moment, I truly believe that things can get better — and that healing is always possible.

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